I’M GETTING MARRIED!!!!!! March 20th, 2010!!! I can’t believe it. I’ve waited my whole life to plan my wedding and I’m loving every single second of it. Here are some pictures of what I’m lovin so far…
Centerpieces:
John’s Ring:
My Bouquet:
My colors are peach, white, and pink!
And here’s my wonderful future husband…
It’s been crazy! To say the least. But what’s been the craziest is living life without my best friend…We’ve been friends since the junior high but lived together the past two years. We’ve gone through it all and always had each other to fall back on. All the inside jokes, the memories, the good times we’ve shared is basically the only thing keeping me from falling apart. She’s the closest thing I’ve ever had to a sister and the only true friend I’ve ever had. In her words, “This isn’t a goodbye but a see you later.” She married her one true love and moved half way across the country. I love you, LaTiffany, and always will. I’m happy for you and wish you the best! I know AJ is the one for you…he’s the only one you’ve talked about for the past five years. AJ, I’ve taken care of her heart for a long, long time; it’s your turn now. Tell her you love her every day and feed her all the ice cream she can handle. She gets the weirdest cravings for it. If I had one more day with her here I’d never let go of her because I valued every second with her…I’m sad those seconds are going to be far and few between now. I love you both and good luck in Cali! Put your toes in the sand for me.
Jordan
Ohhhhhhh Dierks Bentley. How I love you. Oh so much! We briefly touched hands. I’m sure I changed his life forever because of that moment we shared together. haha!
1. These shoes are too cute! Peek-toe with a bow!!! Ahh! Must have.
2. This girls tattoos are way me. I’m eventually getting one on my foot!
3. Wow. I love it. Will I ever get it? Probably not. But I admire her self expression.
4. Someone please get this for me?
5. aaaand get me this.
Obviously the other day I was having a high day but today is a low…not feeling good mixed with nothing real urgent to do makes for time to think….and thinking is not good for me right now. The worse thoughts are coming out. A tinge of depression is setting in. Life seems grey today. It’s rainy outside…fitting.
I miss how my life was. How he was. How we were. I thought it would get better because it’s been a while…but it hurts. Time doesn’t heal all pain. I’m still broken inside…still dazed and confused. Still lost. I still don’t understand what happened…where I went wrong…where we went wrong. I wish I had the answers. I wish the nightmares would go away. I wish my soul would stop bleeding…
I had everything. I had it all. I knew for a while what happy felt like. My light has gone out. It’s all shades of grey.
was such a beautifully relaxing day. I’m back in Salina at my parents house watching my little brother while my parents vacation in Florida. They told me the weather there is just gorgeous but Kansas gave them a run for their money today. There is no better way to explain it other than perfect. Sunny skies, slight breeze, perfect temperature. Mmm…perfect. I swung on the porch swing for the better part of an hour, vacuumed out my car, took my brother to the park, came home to wash my car, and then took him on a bike ride. I got a little sun burnt but it is worth it!!
By the way, Congratulations to my dad and mom for 25 years of marriage!!! In a world that is unsure, my parents are my rock in ever dimension including their marriage. I love you dad and mom!
I think its safe to say that all three of us girls are finally completely settled in our new apartment! It took long enough. 
Really, all thats left is painting one wall! I don’t know how I lived without the space before. Trading my master beedroom with my own bathroom would probably kill me.
My new life is slowly under way also. There’s been a lot of changes lately; unexpected but accepted changes. I’ve got a new hair cut, new apartment, new room mate, new promotion, and a new outlook on life. It’s been a challenge. I’ve had to learn to adapt, cope. But I’m surviving!
“Fall For You”
The best thing about tonight’s that we’re not fighting
Could it be that we have been this way before
I know you don’t think that I am trying
I know you’re wearing thin down to the core
But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don’t make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it’s true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You’re impossible to find
This is not what I intended
I always swore to you I’d never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may have failed
But I have loved you from the start
Oh
But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don’t make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it’s true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
It’s impossible
So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in
I’m yours to keep
And hold onto your words
Cause talk is cheap
And remember me tonight
When your asleep
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don’t make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it’s true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don’t make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it’s true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You’re impossible to find
Seek Not My Heart
By Kit McCallum
Oh gentle winds ‘neath moonlit skies,
Do not you hear my heartfelt cries?
Below the branches, here about,
Do not you sense my fear and doubt?
Side glistening rivers, sparkling streams,
Do not you hear my woeful screams?
Upon the meadows, touched with dew,
Do not you see my hearts a’skew?
Beneath the thousand twinkling stars,
Do not you feel my jagged scars?
Seek not my mournful heart kind breeze,
For you’ll not find it ‘mongst these trees.
It’s scattered ‘cross the moonlit skies,
Accompanied by heartfelt sighs.
It’s drifting o’re the gentle rain,
A symbol of my silent pain.
It’s buried ‘neath the meadow fair,
Conjoined with all the sorrow there.
It’s lost among the stars this night,
Too far to ease my quiet fright.
No gentle winds, seek not my heart,
For simply … it has torn apart.
A Red, Red Rose
Robert Burns
O my luve’s like a red, red rose.
That’s newly sprung in June;
O my luve’s like a melodie
That’s sweetly play’d in tune.
As fair art thou, my bonnie lass,
So deep in luve am I;
And I will love thee still, my Dear,
Till a’the seas gang dry.
Till a’ the seas gang dry, my Dear,
And the rocks melt wi’ the sun:
I will luve thee still, my Dear,
While the sands o’life shall run.
And fare thee weel my only Luve!
And fare thee weel a while!
And I will come again, my Luve,
Tho’ it were ten thousand mile!
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